More baking (not for me!)
I was running a training course today and knew that tea/coffee and freshly baked cookies would be delivered several times during the day, so I filled my boots at breakfast to prevent any hunger pangs causing me to lose my resolve. My masterplan worked!
I meant to take in the rest of the chicken tikka masala from last night to work today but forgot, so popped into Sainsbury’s and picked up one of their “Be Good To Yourself” range. I agree with Paola about the high cost of ready meals compared to buying fresh produce, but I’m a) not a huge fan of cooking and b) can’t be arsed when it’s only for me, anyway!
I’m currently baking more chocolate cupcakes, as someone is leaving tomorrow, so the flat is filled with the smell of chocolate! Mmmm!
| Breakfast | Yoghurt | 70 |
|---|---|---|
| Weetabix + skimmed milk | 176 | |
| Lunch | Diet chicken + broccoli pie + carrots | 346 |
| Dinner | Chicken masala + rice | 473 |
| Drinks | Various beverages | 50 |
| Total Calories | 1,115 | |
No More Pecans
Note: Lunch is a guess. The dish was very much like this one but the meat had the skin on. I found a different chicken stew which was 400 calories but included 4 tablespoons butter. So in the end, I went for the middle of the road.
| Breakfast | |
| 2 milky coffee | 100 |
| Lunch | |
| chicken stew with tomato, potato, carrot | 300 |
| Dinner | |
| Pork roast | 166 |
| potatoes | 86 |
| olive oil | 40 |
| Light Asparagus Sauce | 144 |
| Asparagus | 38 |
| ham | 64 |
| Dinner Total | 538 |
| Additional | |
| Rosé wine | 279 |
| 100g pecans | 715 |
| 1 chocolate truffle | 54 |
| Total | 1986 |
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I knew I was being bad – eating just before bed for one thing! And I’d even seen that they were NOT a good snack food on Paola’s chart. But I love Pecans and these are covered with salt and chile powder.
I’m the only person in the house that likes them – I guess I’ll have to give them away or something.
Emotional Response
Today, which had been blocked out as a much desired freestyle writing day (that is, write what I wanted, play with fiction, whatever) started out badly and then rapidly got worse.
I’d already known that today’s lunch was a bit iffy, as I had decided to make pasta but was going to keep calorie counts down by including lots of veg (and maybe a side salad) and watching my portion size.
By the time it came time to make lunch, I was miserable and had briefly been in tears (problems with my son, not THAT big a deal but a culmination of issues has brought me to the realisation that something needs to change). I was very much in a mood of not caring about whether the food was good for me or low calorie or anything else.
When I do my food diary for yesterday, you’ll see that I already had a fuck-it-moment and pigged out on pecans late at night. I made myself weigh the pecans so that I could see the result when doing the tracking. Today, I reminded myself how embarrassing it would be to show up on the boards AGAIN saying I had no food diary because I couldn’t be bothered counting. Quite honestly, that was the only reason I tracked the food as I was cooking it.
I filled my pasta bowl but didn’t quite serve everything – so now I’m full but not so full I feel ill. I will tot it all up later but I wanted to write down now how I felt for later reference. That’s the first clear “emotional eating” pattern I’ve seen.
Day 115: The return of salad
5am Porridge + half pint of squash
Temporary insomnia. Porridge made with water and milk with added sultanas. I add Splenda sugar and margarine at the end.

| 1 serving | calories | protein | carbs | fat | fibre |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| extra light Flora spread | 19 | 0.5 | 0.2 | 1.8 | 0.0 |
| sultanas | 30 | 0.3 | 6.9 | 0.0 | 0.2 |
| semi-skimmed milk | 37 | 2.6 | 3.8 | 1.3 | 0.0 |
| porridge oats | 144 | 4.4 | 24.2 | 3.2 | 3.4 |
| Total | 229 | 8 | 35 | 6 | 4 |
I made a hummus with chickpeas and carrots plus a range of additional flavours.
Really simple to make. Add 250g carrots, 240g chickpeas, 2 x red chilli, 1 x dill pickle, 1 x red onion, 35g capers, 38g cheddar cheese, juice from 2 lemons, 34g sunflower seeds, 120ml orange juice and seasoning to a blender. The chilli, seeds, pickle and cheese are optional.
I used orange juice in place of olive oil. Best served chilled. Drizzle with a little olive oil and serve with bread.

1:30pm Carrot hummus with rye bread

| 1 serving | calories | protein | carbs | fat | fibre |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| capers | 1 | 0.1 | 0.1 | 0.0 | 0.0 |
| hamisha cucumber | 1 | 0.1 | 0.2 | 0.0 | 0.1 |
| red chilli | 5 | 0.2 | 0.9 | 0.0 | 0.2 |
| lemon juice | 6 | 0.1 | 2.0 | 0.0 | 0.1 |
| red onion | 8 | 0.2 | 1.8 | 0.0 | 0.3 |
| orange juice | 14 | 0.2 | 2.9 | 0.0 | 0.0 |
| carrots | 18 | 0.0 | 3.8 | 0.0 | 1.3 |
| extra virgin olive oil | 21 | 0.0 | 0.0 | 2.3 | 0.0 |
| half-fat cheddar cheese | 25 | 2.8 | 0.0 | 1.5 | 0.0 |
| sunflower seeds | 49 | 2.2 | 0.6 | 4.2 | 0.9 |
| chickpeas | 65 | 3.9 | 9.3 | 1.4 | 2.9 |
| multi-grain rye bread | 97 | 3.0 | 19.6 | 0.7 | 4.4 |
| Total | 308 | 13 | 41 | 10 | 10 |
Afternoon drink: hot chocolate
5pm Cheese and chutney wrap + tea + almond biscotti @ Costa Coffee
New on the menu: cheddar and caramelised onion chutney flatbread.

| 1 serving | calories | protein | carbs | fat | fibre |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| Cantuccini almond biscotti | 165 | 3.8 | 22.8 | 6.3 | 1.3 |
| cheese & onion chutney flatbread | 355 | 13.2 | 41.3 | 15.2 | 0.0 |
| Total | 520 | 17 | 64 | 22 | 1 |
We did a food shop at Waitrose. I bought this lovely herb plant of Greek Basil. Isn’t it gorgeous?

Pedometer: 4,251 steps.
10:45pm Cottage cheese and carrot hummus salad + half pint of squash + orange
I prepared this at 9pm but ate it after receiving a long phone call.

| 1 serving | calories | protein | carbs | fat | fibre |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| watercress | 8 | 1.5 | 0.8 | 0.0 | 0.4 |
| lemon juice | 12 | 0.2 | 4.1 | 0.0 | 0.2 |
| extra virgin olive oil | 51 | 0.0 | 0.0 | 5.7 | 0.0 |
| orange | 62 | 1.2 | 15.3 | 0.2 | 1.2 |
| cottage cheese | 80 | 12.3 | 4.6 | 1.6 | 0.0 |
| carrot hummus | 84 | 4.3 | 9.6 | 3.2 | 2.5 |
| Total | 296 | 19 | 34 | 11 | 4 |
The day’s totals:
| Day 115 | calories | protein | carbs | fat | fibre |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| Breakfast | 229 | 8 | 35 | 6 | 4 |
| Lunch | 308 | 13 | 41 | 10 | 10 |
| Dinner | 520 | 17 | 64 | 22 | 1 |
| Snack | 296 | 19 | 34 | 11 | 4 |
| Other drinks | 100 | ||||
| Total | 1,453 | 57 | 175 | 49 | 19 |
| 17% | 51% | 32% | |||
| Allowance | 1,200 | 75 – 105g 25 – 35% |
120 – 165g 40 – 55% |
33 – 40g 25 – 30% |
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That’s what happens when I have breakfast AND eat out for a meal.
