The Food Confessional

Posted by Paola

It’s been a week since you last blogged on Fat as Hell about feeling discouraged after your 10lb weight gain soon after hitting the 75lbs mark of weight lost prompted by being medicated for high blood pressure.

I hope that you’re on holiday, walking a lot and too busy to blog. Or perhaps you had a tiny accident and are in hospital.

Or perhaps you’re waiting for us to give up on you.

Well, I hope you’re okay and coming back soon but, if it’s the latter, please know that we’re not going to give up on you, even if you’ve given up on yourself.

You’ve been big all your life and yet you’ve lost 75 lbs in your 30s. This is a HUGE achievement.

Whether or not you sometimes take a few steps back, you know how to eat to lose weight. You are stuck with this knowledge. You can never unknow it. And, now, when you go to Starbucks for a whipped cream coffee and a cake, you’re gonna feel like shit, spoiling your experience, because you will know it’s doing you harm.

Is this where you are now, stuck between a rock and a hard place?

In the end, you don’t have much choice, you must get back onto your diet. The alternative is to eat cakes and jars of peanut butter, but never really enjoying them as much as you used to, and always be miserable.

There is no shame in self-doubt, but don’t hijack your own life because you think you can’t succeed, don’t deserve success or whatever. I don’t think it’s about the food; I think it’s about what you think of yourself. However, despite that, you were doing VERY well and can do so again.

We will support you. Lots and lots of people care about you. We are waiting for you.

Please come back.

I miss you.