The Food Confessional

Posted by Sylvia

Today I had a large lunch, with plenty of protein. Ever since I finished it, I’ve been thinking about something sweet. Nothing specific, it’s rather vague.

I think a diet coke would cure this but I was reading about sweeteners and sugar addictions and was thinking about going a day or two with no sugar/sweeteners at all to see what would happen. So I don’t have the coke.

I realise an hour later that I haven’t had any water either – usually in the morning I pick up a 1.5 litre bottle of water which sits on my desk and I aim to have finished it before dinner. Today the only drink I’ve had is a milky coffee and half a cup of tea. I get the water and drink a large glass on the spot and go back to reading.

Now it’s twenty past five. I still fancy something sweet. I feel sluggish and lethargic. I’m thinking I really should go for a walk to shake me up a bit. I am feeling guilty because I didnt get a lot done yesterday (partly because we had no internet connectivity for half the day) so today was supposed to be a catch-up day but I’m not really catching up. I also slept until noon ! So I have no excuse for being lazy.

Ichange my mind and have a diet coke. I’m not really sure what to do about the tiredness. I had two large glasses of wine last night so this could just be penance – empty calories plus mild hangover? But I felt fine this morning, it’s only in the late afternoon that I’ve become sluggish. Maybe my calorie count really is low and I should top it up when I’m tired. Or I just need a quick energy hit – an espresso with a single teaspoon of sugar would not be that fatal and should make me zing.

In the end, I spend 30 minutes lying down with a book and then have an espresso. I also cut my list of things to do right down to absolutely urgent. Maybe I’m just reacting too having lists that are too long.