I Only Perspire
Posted by Sylvia
I’ve continued my trend of moderating food and drink without tracking and without driving myself crazy. I didn’t walk yesterday but I have walked every other day, making a point of walking up the hill (steep, hot, definitely a cardio work-out) to try to mitigate the damage. We went to the village festival and although I had sausages and beer, I drank one diet coke for every beer I consumed. This had the unfortunate side-effect of keeping me happily awake until 4am but I still think the calories end up much less by this kind of balancing.
That said, I don’t really trust my weigh-in results. In fact, I waited a couple of days before updating to make sure it wasn’t just a blip or the scale being funky.
Last two weigh-ins were 75.8 and 76.1 so this would imply, even if the 76.1 was water retention, that I’m now actively losing weight at a very slow rate. However, based on my actual food intake (and I’m not taking the pills, no point if I’m not doing portion control), I don’t think that is right.
I’m not drinking anywhere near as much water and it’s VERY hot, so I think part of that may be dehydration. Only I could end up losing water weight by stopping a diet. *grumble*
However, it seems clear that I am definitely not GAINING weight so even if next week it shows 75.8 again, I’ll be happy. And if it shows 74.9, I’ll be ecstatic.
As long as it is hot, salads seem most appropriate anyway, so it’s not really that much of a hardship. :)
Edit: Cliff says it’s very noticeable that I’m eating much less than I was previous to the diet and that he’s not surprised that I’m still losing weight. Maybe I’m making better choices than I think I am. Things are calming down now so I might look at tracking next week, although just the fact that it’s not so busy means things will change.
Maybe I do more boredom eating than I realise.
Off the rails
Posted by Anna
Thursday turned out to be the precursor for a rather rapid slide downhill on Friday. I don’t really know what happened and can only speculate as to why. But yesterday I ate and ate and ate — not vast amounts, but just all the “wrong things” (i.e. stuff I’ve been avoiding on my diet). I can’t remember all that I ate and to be honest, can’t be bothered trying to figure out the calories of all the stuff I do remember eating. The 2500 on the table is an estimate. I don’t believe it was more than that, but it probably wasn’t much less.
Why did it happen? I’m not sure — I just know I had a real “I don’t care” attitude and because I wasn’t bothered, I didn’t self-regulate. One of my work-friends who I socialise with outside of work had a birthday and a group of us went to the park at lunchtime for a picnic. I took all the “right things” but others had brought biscuits, nuts and other treats and in the end, I just joined in. Also, it was the last day for one of the training team and in the afternoon we had a big send off for her, which included lots of the ubiquetous cake and savoury snacks and then repaired to the pub where more (fattening) snacks were on offer. When I got home around 9:30pm, I indulged in a couple of shortbread biscuits from one of the packs I have in my larder and *really* enjoyed them.
Some of the things I can speculate why I reached that place: 1. I’ve been in constant pain for weeks with my feet and it’s grinding me down. 2. My boss was being very difficult with me on Wednesday, leaving me feeling both uncomfortable and upset and I’ve felt miserable ever since. His utter lack of empathy or any degree of self-awareness makes it almost impossible to give him feedback on his behaviour, because he simply doesn’t get it (I tried). 3. One of the training team left on Friday just when I was getting very comfortable with her — she joined the team a year ago and I think saw me as a ‘threat’ so treated me accordingly. It took her a long time to realise I wasn’t and then change and the last few months have seen a very productive and satisfying professional relationship. 4. My weight went up the day after the weigh in (quite possibly water retention from my constantly swollen foot) and I felt as if everything I’m doing to try to lose weight has stopped making a difference. 5. I’m fed up with dieting and constantly having to figure out all the calories of every single thing I’ve eaten.
I will get back ‘on the rails’ today.
| All | Far too much | 2,500 |
|---|---|---|
| Sub-total | 2,500 | |
| Total Calories | 2,500 | |
