The Food Confessional

Posted by Ginni

My step for today was to eat only when I was physically hungry. I think I managed pretty well with that, in the sense that I ate less.

Breakfast at 11am: Indian Flat bread and Chick peas (no oil, only spiced up!)

Lunch 3pm: Left over flat bread from the morning with some chickpeas

Dinner 9pm: a small bowl of Mac Cheese (Kraft Dinner) and some left over bread from the morning

Snack 11pm: 1 Poppadum (dry roasted) 26 calories

I might have a cup of tea before I go to bed now.

Step for tomorrow:

I think I need to program my brain to listen to my body. I will make sure I take time out for myself to hear my body. I would like to train my body to eat only what it likes and not let anything go past these lips that I don’t actually like. Then I will teach myself not to touch leftovers!!

For now, I will be content with taking time out to hear my body tomorrow before putting anything in my mouth. (Trying to slow myself down!)

Posted by Ginni

I am enjoying this ‘One Step a Day’ diet, as I don’t feel guilty when I eat something, as its not in my step to deal with today!

My food log for today:-

Breakfast : Berry Smoothie (Strawberries, Blueberries, Raspberries, a little bit of honey, home made 0% yoghurt)

Late morning: 2 slices of Toast with a boiled egg

3pm Lunch: A Pepperoni Pizza (Nutrisystem) 300 calories

8pm Dinner: Celery Soup 160 calories

11pm – Low Cal Hot Choc drink

Water: I lost count after 5 glasses but I had more than 8 (still have a glass on my desk as I am writing this)

Snack – I decided to keep a bowl of sunflower seeds on my desk and I nibble a piece at a time whilst I am on the computer. It makes me thirsty for some reason, so helped with the intake of water too.

The Step for tomorrow – To eat only when I am actually physically hungry.  I semi started this today, but formally it starts from tomorrow. I will aim to physically have a quiet moment to listen to my body to tell me whether it is hungry or not.

Thank you for all your  hugs and the suggestions – I will be stocking up on low cal drinks or experimenting with smoothies (if the snowing stops!). I have a stash of low cal hot choc drinks for now. I think I do better without snacks too, but I am going to get away from the routine of eating ‘on time’.

I am building up to the step to count calories soon, but I don’t think I am ready for that just yet!

Posted by Ginni

I am extremely grateful for the support and *hugs* I got from my food confessional friends and it kept me on track today. I consciously made the effort to follow Step 2 – drinking lots of water and didn’t beat myself up for everything else I did.

Surprisingly this little step, even though it said nowhere that I would watch what I eat, but I did. I was careful as I knew I had to confess about it at the end of the day.

Water intake today was 9 decent size glasses (3/4 of a pint glass size)

Breakfast:  Grilled Grapefruit at 7.30am

2nd breakfast at 10am with family: 1 small pancake with syrup and a cup of tea with medicine

Lunch – Pizza pop (bad choice!)

3pm – 3 strawberries and a mini carrot cupcake that Dal n Jakey brought for me. I didn’t want it and I don’t like carrot cupcakes but I had to eat it as they went to a lot of trouble. Jakey cut the strawberries into little pieces for me as I was working at the time. I didn’t have the heart to say, ‘No honey, I am on a diet’. But I will need to deal with this one on another step, not for today!

4pm – Indian Spinach Roll (Patra) with a cup of tea

11pm – Nutrisystem meal (I have a few left over ones that I pick up when I don’t feel like cooking – 130 cal) and a cup a soup (70 cal) – medicine time again.

I tried to spread out the food intake all day and ate when I was hungry. I start shaking when I get ‘really’ hungry, so I tried to time it to the point where I could physically cope with it.

I don’t feel deprived of food, as I could eat whatever I wanted to. I am finding it easier to stick to a step a day, so far!

My 3rd step tomorrow will be to teach myself to eat ONLY when I am hungry. I will not eat just because every one else is eating, or its ‘time to eat’. I will only eat when my body says, ‘give me food’. I am going to spend an hour in the morning cooking the entire day’s food for everyone – or just preparing by chopping up the veg in readiness for lunch. I don’t want to pick up rubbish things like a pizza pop, just because I could not be bothered to cook for myself.

If my son said he was hungry, I would make him a proper meal. But when it comes to myself, I would just pick up the first thing that I can grab and eat it, totally ignoring what my taste buds are saying. NOT GOOD! I think my 4th step will be not to eat what I don’t like!

Posted by Ginni

Having spent most of the night, last night reading about different diets and what I must do and things I must never do, my brain is boggled!

One thing is clear, specially from Sylvia’s comments to my previous post, that I must take one step at a time. I loved the idea of the No S diet, but I NEED a S Diet. My S Diet being, one S a day – one step a day.

My first step for today will be to drink a lot more water today. Before a meal in particular as I tend to forget to drink water during the day.

I would say my first step in the right direction was yesterday when I confessed I was lost in this maze and I needed help to get myself out of this weight problem. I wonder how many of these little steps would take me to my goal? I am off to get myself another glass of water now…

Posted by Ginni

I am so gobsmacked by the amount of weight that Paola has lost and I keep coming back to the confessional to be inspired to lose some of my flab! I wish I had the perseverance that Paola and everyone else has, but I keep falling off the wagon.

My weight gain is so bad that it is the highest it has ever been. I keep going into hospital for one thing after another. I have Gallstones, High BP, a heart condition, carpol syndrome, tendonitis on my arms, metabolic syndrome etc etc… and absolutely EVERYTHING is linked with weight gain. I have to eat 11 tablets in the morning with breakfast to be able to function like a human being every day and another 4 in the evening. I swore years ago I wasn’t going to be like my mum, but that’s exactly what I am becoming!

My doctor has written me off work for an entire month for me to have full rest and to see a Counsellor. I have never had that much time off work, but he is insistent I am not fit for work right now. So, what do I do with myself? I wonder myself how the day flies by so fast.

I have tried every diet under the sun, with the most recent one being Nutrisystem meals, which helped me lose weight but left me so hungry and with uncontrollable shivers. I have not failed at anything in life, but I am failing my battle with this weight. Why?

One good thing about this rest period is, that I can spend some time on myself. My weight is higher than before, at 242lbs and I am a size 18/20. I know what I need to do, but I can’t seem to put it into practice. Even as I write today, I am sitting here with a small bowl of vanilla ice-cream.

I am lost ! I know I should utilise this time effectively and get myself on a strict diet…or should I do a detox? ..options, options. I am crap at measuring every spoonful of what I eat for their calorific value, otherwise I could follow Paola’s footsteps.

I have a puppy who is 14 weeks old and very very active, as well as my 5 year old son. We have all been going for walks every day and playing around, but its not enough. I need to lose weight, and I need to lose it like yesterday if I am to get off these tablets.