9:40am Chicken and Quark with bread + half pint of squash
I knew I was going to be having lunch out today.
|Quark low-fat soft cheese||22||3.8||1.3||0.1||0.0|
|Quorn chicken-style slices||56||8.5||2.3||1.4||3.1|
We had a meeting at our former company, Limitless. I was last there four months ago for a BBQ.
When I’d mentioned in mail to Pippa before how much weight I’d lost, she’d asked if I was now skinny and full of energy. I said I still had two stone to go. When she saw me today, she seemed impressed and asked if I really needed to lose that much more weight. She said it was like seeing a completely different person and asked Frank what it felt like to have a different wife, all of which I found a bit freaky because, besides my face shape changing, I can’t see a big difference in my body shape.
I expect I’ll have to get used to such reactions from other people who haven’t seen me a few months but I find it awkward because a) it doesn’t seem such a big change to me as it’s happened so slowly and b) I haven’t done anything REALLY difficult, such as learn to walk again after an accident, or anything like that. Finally c) I’m just fixing my embarrassing 30-year mistake of over-eating.
2pm Piccolo mushroom pizza + mixed salad + diet Coke @ Pizza Express
This Pizza Express let me have the small pizza from the kids’ menu. Again, the salad dressing was too vinegary to finish. The salad is otherwise 326 calories according to calorie-count.com
|mixed leaf salad w/dressing*||136||0.0||2.0||14.0||0.0|
|8″ mushroom pizza*||546||26.6||76.8||14.6||6.6|
At lunch, Jules asked how I could be sure that I wouldn’t put the weight back on after I stopped my diet. Although I told him that I’d not gained weight since January and that I’d blog for at least six months after I reached my target so I could keep track as I gradually increase my calories, I forgot the most important reason:
I can’t unknow what I now know about food. I will always have an idea how many calories are in things. I might eat too much in future but it’ll be entirely a different psychological experience than ever before because I’ll know just HOW much I am eating.
When I fantasised before about not being fat, I wished I could just BECOME slim and that would be motivation enough not to mess it up again. I still think – hope – that there will be some element of that next year. I am too old to want to take another year to lose weight again.
4:40pm Frappe latte + lemon drizzle cake @ Caffe Nero
Ho hum. I was hungry again. I’m not sure why I thought I would have spare calories after a pizza lunch to have cake, and I’d had a muffin yesterday.
|Frappe latte (half)||154||6.9||27.4||2.2||0.0|
|lemon drizzle cake||252||3.3||37.4||9.9||0.5|
9:20pm Tomatoes, mince and beans with dumplings + blood orange + pint of fizzy squash
|beans, mince and tomatoes w/dumplings||192||16.0||27.7||2.1||9.2|
Late evening drink: pint of squash
|Allowance||1,200||75 – 105g
25 – 35%
|120 – 165g
40 – 55%
|33 – 40g
25 – 30%