I felt really full again today. I didn’t get hungry all day and yet I still ate. I feel like I want to eat, feel that I should eat something but each plate turns into a normal-sized meal.
My trousers feel tight – I’ve back to three notches on my belt whereas a couple of weeks ago they were loose on the fourth notch.
In trying to figure out what’s going through my head in this non-dieting period of mine, I have an irrational thought of self-pity, of wanting people to feel sorry for what’s “happening to me” even though I am doing it to myself.
I was wondering what could have triggered this and the only thing that now comes to mind is that my mother is going through a very bad patch again. I went to visit her a few days ago and could really only help by distracting her from her pain. I wonder if in some perverse way I am either making myself suffer in sympathy or, worse, attention-seeking. Yikes, both are awful to contemplate!
12:10pm Ham and cheese salad sandwich + nectarine + tea
2:45pm ‘Hot’ and sour soup + apple
Mushrooms, onion, frozen mixed veg, ginger. Flavoured with soya sauce, mushroom ketchup (which is like a vegetarian Worcestershire sauce), balsamic vinegar, cider vinegar and honey. The recipe called for thickening with cornflour but I couldn’t be bothered to reach for it and so I used Bisto gravy powder instead. Nice but it needs protein such as lightly-fried tofu or white beans.
6:40pm Cottage cheese salad
I wish I hadn’t eaten this. I didn’t need to.
Later: hot chocolate + prunes
9:10pm Oven-dried tomatoes
This is the result of my first attempt at drying tomatoes in the oven. Laid out on a cooling tray in the over with all the trays removed. I placed half cut side up and the other cut side down. The former dries out quicker (2.5 hrs) but the latter end up flatter.
Not quite what I expected – using baby tomatoes wasn’t such a great idea – but I still did manage to scoff 10-15 immediately. I added most of the remainder to a salmon pasta dish I just made Frank and I had the last six.